Thursday, August 30, 2007
Assalamualaikum. We all know that life is short but indeed, is there room for any regrets? People keep saying that we must live each and every day to its fullest. Make it as if it is the last. Sure or not? Can we still do so when we are doing things that we forced to do day by day? Haizzz. People always asked me to go clubbing with them, I told them I have never go clubbing before and I do not think that the place suits me. They told me that in life, we must taste everything at least once. Is it true? If that is so, why we never want to taste the bitterness of life once. We keep asking for better things, better life. What a contradiction!
On another note, death is a must to each and every living ones! We all know that the day will come but are we preparing for it? When I look back in the past, I was not even sure if I will live up to my 'A' levels days but I still study and prepare for it, but why am I not preparing for the day when I leave this world which will definitely comes. Now I do not have much time to accomplish my religious obligations. What a shit life this is.
Ramadhan is coming, and I am not sure if I will be able to go through it with ketaqwaan when some of the days, I can't even do my solat fardhu and break fast with my family and also go for solat terawih during the nights of Ramadhan. I really hate this. Syawal follow through after Ramadhan. My family plans to celebrate it at my grandma's village in Malacca. All my maternal relatives will be there on the 1st of Syawal. It has been a long time since I celebrate Hari Raya there. Last four years, we did not because my first sister just got married that year and she has to celebrate it with her in-laws in Singapore. Three years ago, I had my 'O' levels, two years ago, my second sister just passed away. Last year, I had my 'A' levels. So for this year, we thought everything was just fine until that stupid, irritating people told me something. "Oh Izwan, you cannot take leave on the 14th and 15th October" What? 12th and 13th October is my off days and you tell me that I have do standbys because other Muslim medics are taking leave on that day. And on top of that I cannot take leave on 14th and 15th October because nobody is free for standbys on these two days. Wah how fair is this world... You give the other Muslim medics to take leave on Hari Raya because they want to celebrate Hari Raya with their families in Singapore and you cleverly find another Muslim medic(unfortunately, it is me) to do standby for that "fortunate" Muslim medic. And you expect me to work 4 days straight? Oh maybe you want me to work on the 16th and 17th too to make me work 6 days consecutively? Isn't that rubbish? So what am I suppose to tell my mother? I can't let them celebrate Hari Raya with my relatives in Malaysia while I am all alone in Singapore. Oh maybe I will be accompanied by my late sister and grandparents here. Ya, celebrating Hari Raya in the ambulance, saving lives... Gosh, I have never celebrated Hari Raya alone and you know how close I am to my family! Ya Allah, tolonglah hambaMu ini...
Wednesday, August 29, 2007
One moment you are alive, and the next you are gone. That is how fragile our life is...
Monday, August 27, 2007
Assalamualaikum. Wah... Just heard of Anuar Zain's latest single and I must say that I am blown away by it. It is something new in the malay industry. Never that I heard this kind of song before. It starts with an opera-like intro and the music has a lot of strings accompaniment. Very sweet lyrics. Very sweet voice. And I must say congratulation to Anuar Zain for the good job done .
Last week, on 21st August, it was Dato' Siti Nurhaliza and Dato' Khalid's first wedding annivesary. They had a kenduri doa selamat
with their family and on 24th August they had a dinner party with celebrity friends and fans. Can see that they are a happy couple for now. May she is blessed with happiness and continue singing and entertaing us, your dear fans!
Saturday, August 25, 2007
Assalamualaikum. It has been a long time since I have got a chance to blog. Been quite busy with may stuffs lately. Actually after being an ambulance attendance, I have more free time than usual. I think it is mainly because I have 3 full days off in a week and on top of that, if I am working night shift, I still have the afternoon and for that I have to compromise my sleeping time. I am thankful that I am blessed by Him to be able to see lots of things that many people do not usually get to see. Different kinds of people, with a variety of emotions at very different places. I also get to see things that I never got to see before, went to weird places that I never imagine me stepping into.
Anyway, amidst the hectic life of mine, I manage to squeeze some times for gatherings and meetings. Last week, caught up with 05S71 at none-other than Fish n Co. Madeleine, Ying Ying, Lily, Touty, Mirna, Melissa, Jason, Tian Chong, Calvin, Yasin, Shawn, Mervin and Mr. Sim were there. Saunders dropped by for a while. It was great to see almost everybody. It is nice to be back in contact with Touty, Mirna and Lily who went MIA after the exams. And as for the guys, now when we meet, our main topic will be NS, NS, NS and NS. No more ten years series, Newton's laws, Summer Test and gossiping about the teachers and friends. But it would be better if Bashirah is there, am I right Bashirah? Ate Hot Chocolate Fudge Cake. Nicey, sinful! Hahaha. Did not really get to talk with Yasin because when he came, I left for my Novawinds band gathering.
Monisha asked me for suggestion for an eating place at Suntec City. Thought of trying new stuff, I suggested Bombay Cafe. It looked great on the advertisements on the television. Did not know that it was a vegetarian restaurant. Nice theme and pretty cosy, shocking PINK and lots of Yogurt! I myslef drank a blended ice with yogurt and mango. Nice but too thick and sweet for me. Then headed to the fireworks at Marina! So many people and we thought of going over to Esplanade since Lixian was there but people were already sitting on the stairs! So Monisha, Maslyn, Jacelyn, Genevieve, Fazlan, Ismail and I decided to stay put at Marina. Nice firework! It was Monisha's birthday that day! What a coincidence! After the firework, we went to Clarke Quay to meet Nabil. Saw Jasmine Tye (hope it is the correct spelling) at Clarke Quay. Pretty woman! Sat at Subway(I did not eat there) and chat for a while and took a bus home with Masylyn, Jacelyn, Ismail and Fazlan home. Had a great chat with them. Reminiscing the past! The band moment! Then went home with Fazlan. Had a long chat with him. Good catching session with both the class and the band.
I do not understand why people ahve to be rude and want to show to people that they are good and heroic. Excuse me, this is just National Service. Like what one of my PM said, "This is NS, no one ask you to be a hero, so act smart!" I just want this two years to be over as soon as possible. What is good, I will take note and take that as a catalyst that initiate a higher level of maturity in me and what is bad, I will just grave it but surely a scar will be embedded in my heart. I will just take it as a "gift" from the nation since I am serving them. On a different note, I hate old people who try to joke or talk to me about sexual or erotic stuffs. I hate it! Oh no, I am DISGUSTED by it! Ewww. Look at your age! Rumah kata pergi, kubur kata mari! I do not even joke about those kind of things with my friends. These old men just leave me to wonder what happen to their dignity and sense of shame!
Friday, August 10, 2007
Assalamualaikum. Actually being an ambulan crew is not a bad thing afterall. Every posting or vocation has its up and down I believe. I cannot take every down moment while being a Medic as an obstruction for me to learn and experience new things everyday. Every case is like a new chapter. Once you attend a new call, you will forget about the previous one. Wednesday's cases were my first-time. I learn a lot of stuff. Arghh... Enough about this ambulance thingy.
Now about my life. Has been not so bad. Lots of off days. I hope I will get fatter this way. Next month is the fasting month. Can't wait for it! I hope He will give me the strength and ability to continue and carry out my duty as well as the other days, if not better. Then come Hari Raya Aidilfitri. Did my own calculations and by right, I am suppose to have my off day during Hari Raya. But my biggest worry is that they might re-shuffle our duties as some Paramedics and Medics will be going over to Changi Fire Station and my leave application not approved! Choy! But there is the possibility, there are a sum of Malay Medics that will be fighting for the leave. Gosh! I will apply my leave next month.
Anyway, watched the premiere of Live Your Dream yesterday. Not bad. Even though there are familiar faces like Eka Mairina and Olyyn, and non-Singaporeans, I think they will push the other contestants to greater heights. They will put Singapore's entertainment industry to a higher notch I believe.
Saturday, August 4, 2007
Assalamualaikum. First time working night shift... The experience is fine, I was actually looking forward to it yesterday's afternoon until when I was asked to run the ambulance alone due to the inusfficient number of medics in the station. Some of my friends who graduated from the M.O.C course with and went straight to fire station as an ambulance crew are running the ambulance with the senior medics and some of them are only going to start running alone on their 3rd week. Yeah, big deal? I have to start running the ambulance along on my 3rd day. Do you see the great difference between 3 weeks and 3 days? Gosh! It went fine except some blunders here and there. Thankfully, there are only minor ones! Need to sleep now! Oh before that, I would like to wish all the best to Madrasah Al Ma'rif and National Junior College for the finals of Bahas 4PM today! Too bad, I cannot be there because I am working people. Asta La Vista...
Friday, August 3, 2007
Assalamualaikum. Gosh! Another working day but today will be a new experience for me as in this will be my first time working night shift as an ambulance crew. Gosh! I can't sleep in the afternoon but never mind, I will force myself to sleep after the Friday prayers. Gosh! Worried, excited, anxious and scared! That's how I am feeling now!
Wednesday, August 1, 2007
Assalamualaikum. 2 days being an ambulance attendance. It is quite scary. My first call was about a student who got an asthma attack. Gosh! Even though it was nothing compared to the other major cases, I felt really scared and dup dap dup dap... There's a lot f things that I do not know. What were thought in M.O.C course was more for our own genreal knowledge and only little of them were applied in ambulance. I think the M.O.C course needs to be restructured to cater to the ambuklance attendance as majority of the class are going to the fire stations as ambulance attendance. I have mixed feelings about being an ambulance attendance. Some people told me that maybe I should go back to the medical centre as it promise a good slacking life. Some people told me that ambulance attendance have good life, time will pass quickly for them. It is hard sometimes. I just hope I will be given petunjuk
by Him. Yesterday when I attended to one case, the casualty's daughter was like saying to her daughter, " Oh gosh! You see these young men, they are blessed to do this job. You guys have the most blessing and wonderful job!" Wonderful job, yeah but am I up for it?