Tuesday, January 31, 2006
Assalamualaikum. I realise that I am loosing all my 'good-friend' skill that I've inculcated into my soul many years ago. Everytime when my friends have any problems, they will come straight to me and pour everything out. I'll be like consoling them, being a big matured brother to them but that's all in the past. Now, things have gone different. Now, what I'll do is just, "...cheer up!". Sometimes, it is also because I do not not know what problems they are all facing. All that I know is that they are depressed. I do not want to be a useless friend. SO sorry friends! Haizz... By the way, I have not prepared a single thing for the debate tomorrow. Wahahah!
Monday, January 30, 2006
Assalamualaikum. I love this picture so much. I took it from one of the many Siti Nurhaliza's websites created by her fans. I must say that I love this website so, so, so much. Very URBAN, I must say. Alright, enough about this...
On last Saturday went to Bedok Community Library for the Pesta Pantun 2006 organised by PBMUKS. I think that this is a great initiative taken by PBMUKS to keep the Malay Language, Literature as well as Culture alive. Congratulations PMUKS! I am very worried about the competition. Bashirah, Hilwa and me will be representing Innova Junior College for this yearly competition. Gosh! Our opponent will be Madrasah Wak Tanjong and Jurong Junior College and we are in the 1st round of the competition. We need supporters for this and there will be a segment where the supporters are asked to complete some of the pantuns, so those interested do tell me. It will be on the 4th February 2006, Bedok Community Library at 10.30 a.m.
After that I went to Downtown East chalet. Had a super duper great time there. It is really good as banishing all my sorrow thought. It was Aisy's birthday party. On the Saturday's night, we played some games with the kids. Oh my GOSH! The kids are really cute. There are very innocent and will do everything that you asked them to do just for the sake of winning a present. That is the spirit that is lacking in me. I don't feel like competing at all ( as in my studies and competitions ). I slept there and just reached home just now. The zephyr of happiness really blows away the mirth of sorrow. Just don't come back. I am glad that I am perfectly okay with all the things that have plunged down my emotion over the past few weeks. Although it is gone, but the mark is still there in my heart. Just hope that it will not bleed again.
I am all ready to start this new year, 1427 Hijrah, according to the Islamic calender. Although I am pretty sick, my body's temperature is running high, I do no want to waste it even right at the start. Hope the panadol, good night sleep and fruit juices will keep it down.
Wishing all the Muslims, Selamat Menyambut Ma'al Hijrah 1428 and to the Chinese, Gong Xi Fa Cai!
Sunday, January 29, 2006
Assalamualaikum. Now I like the Prasasti Nova's blog so much. Although I am the one who editted and changed the skin and all, I love it so much. It now looks so much better than the band's blog ( no offence band members ) . Ooppsss... Do not get the wrong idea. I am not self-praising but just proud of it. At least the Malay community in Innova Junior College has something to be proud of (I hope so!). I also love my blog now. It looks better now than previously.
Saturday, January 21, 2006
Assalamualaikum. Yesterday was truly a bad day for me. I was scolded for nothing that I'd done wrong. Just whatever. No matter how much I want to explain that I am innocent, people will still think that I've done the greatest sin. So be it. I just can't simply be bothered. My reputation is already being smeared in front of the others. Thanks so much for me being the stupid one and asking the juniors this and that and remind them this and that. I am making a FOOOOLLLLLLLLLLLLL of myself! I won't be that stupid again. Enough is enough. I can't go on! I am nobody that you can make use of.
I do not know what is actually happening in this very world of ours. Cheaters get the fame and stream into the limelight but the innocents are just being pushed into the abyss of shame. I just can't stand it.
I just do not know what happened to me. I think I am going crazy. I mean really. The craziness that brings one into the Mental Hospital. One after one problem lining up in the queue to face me. I've lost everything. Love. Trust. Reputation. Happiness.
Yes, yes, yes. I am crying now. I am so happy that I am crying now. Let the exasperation diffuse into the thin air and never come back. Sometimes I wonder, people saw me laugh and joke, they must think that I am very funny and happy-go-lucky. Yeah, big joker but no one knows how this heart is battling with this unbearable pain.
Why the heck do I care about people's feelings when they don't even give a damn on mine?
Friday, January 20, 2006
Watched this movie yesterday. Great movie but not as great as the book.
Thursday, January 19, 2006
For now, this is my favourite song. This song really tells the story of mine. I never thought this could happen. I am just praying for your happiness.
Your happiness makes me smile, your grief makes me cry.Tell me his name
I want to know
The way he looks
And where you go
I need to see his face
I need to understand
Why you and I came to an end
Tell me againI want to hear
Who broke my faith in all these years
Who lays with you at night
When I'm here all alone
Remembering when I was your own
I'll let you goI'll let you fly
Why do I keep on asking why
I'll let you go
Now that I found
A way to keep somehow
More than a broken vow
Tell me the words I never said
Show me the tears you never shed
Give me the touch
That one you promised to be mine
Or has it vanished for all time
I close my eyes
And dream of you and I
And then I realize
There's more to life than only bitterness and lies
I close my eyes
I'd give away my soul
To hold you once again
And never let this promise end
Broken Vow - Josh Groban
Saturday, January 14, 2006
:: 05S71 ::
Oh ya, forget about this one... I love this picture so much!
Friday, January 13, 2006
Assalamualaikum. Hello guys! Here are the pictures...
What a beautiful and delicious cake!
Me with the baker of the cake!
Have the honour to be the first to taste the cake!
Touty seems to be very happy! In fact, every one does ... Especially me!
While waiting for the rain to stop...
Just can't be bothered with the rain!
I wonder how these girls can still smile in the damn freezing cold bus!
Thursday, January 12, 2006
Assalamualaikum. 1st of all I would like to thank 05S71 to organise such a lovely surprise party for me. I am really touched by what you guys did for me. Played in the rain with Bashirah, Madeleine, Gerald, Lily and Mirna. Hahahah! It was so funny. We tried some sort of a flying fox and had a really great time. Will be uploading the pictures soon!
P.E was gosh! Tiring. However, I felt that this week's lesson was so much better than that of the last week's. So many classes having P.E at the same time. Mass P.E lesson they call it. I just hope I will be able to clinch a Silver award for my Napha Test and bid farewell to my 3 months of BMT.
Band practices resumed yesterday. Finally, the band is complete, oh not really. We do not have cornets players. The juniors are great, I mean mine. The new saxophone players are excellent. Sadly, 2 of them were given no instruments because we have a limited number of Saxophones. The band will be working on it soon and maybe we'll buy new saxophones...
I am getting a hang of my new chapters and thought that it was a good start until Integration lecture starts. I don't even understand a single thing. Gosh! Integration - A Journey with Newton?
Saturday, January 7, 2006
Assalamualaikum. 1st week at school wasn't that bad. I thought it would be worst but ok. The school suddenly looks so small when the J1s come. Hahaha! Got great teachers. I believe that I am in good hands. Mdm Suhana, Mr. Kelvin Sim and Miss Ng. It is not that the old teachers aren't good but ya, isn't a change is good sometimes? Hari Raya songs are on air at the radio and television. Hahaha! Hari Raya Aidilfitri songs on Hari Raya Aidiladha? Clash! The messages that lies behind these two festival are totally different. Aidiladha is about sacrifices. It is not some joyful season or something...
You know, it is strange to know that people think that it is unusual to see me quiet. Do I talk to much? I am not that talkative actually. In the past, I was the most quiet student in my class. Some of my relatives and neighbours are shocked when they learn that I am in a debating line and represent Singapore for a Debate competition and not some "The Most Quiet People(mute people do not qualify)" competition. Haizz... Must I change back to the old quiet Izwan?
Wednesday, January 4, 2006
Assalamualaikum. Hi guys... I am so busy, got to go... but before that I would like to thank to all those who wishes me Happy Birthday. Thank you so much! Want to write more but time do not permit me to do so...