Monday, June 5, 2006
Assalamualaikum. My feelings right now is just concocted with happiness and sadness. Firstly, I am sad because I am sick now. Gosh, had migraine last night. I can actually feel a vein of mine buldging and I can feel the undulating pumping of my blood. Urrgghhh! It may sounds scary, but once you feel the pain, you'll just ignore it. Hahahaha... Sad too that we lose to Millenia Institute in the debate.
But, but, but, but I am also happy. Although we lose, our total marks still qualify us to the next round which is the Quarter Finals. Also, Kak Guy came to me and told me that I put a good show. Alhamdulillah. Also, I managed to clinch the Best Debater Award. Although I was really scared in the beginning as people will surely have a high expectation of me and what if I do not manage to put up a good show... But I think I did! Thank God!
Now, I am looking forward to the Quarter Finals. Gosh! Like the previous round, we are facing another problems. All the 3 other debaters are involved in the Liteature Camp part of the MLEP until the 10th June and on the 10th June itself, we'll be having the Quarter Finals. And I have to travel to and fro to Nacli Campsite to train with them. Gosh! That'll be tiring but I guess it is a commitment that I have to give. It is a responsibility that I have to shoulder, no matter how hard it is, it is my RESPONSIBILITY!
Sometimes I wonder how some people can just ignore the responsibility that are left on their shoulder and making other people's life miserable. And my life is one of them. It is already miserable enough and I know how unbearable the pain is and I do not wish to let other people feel the same way I did by not being responsible.
Gosh, I am so sick! Do you know ho long I take to complete this entry? Just to share with you guys... It is 2 hours! After typing a few sentences, I will close my eyes and rest for a while before I continue typing... The worst thing is that I still have not sudied for my Prelim Exam 1.