Monday, November 14, 2005
Assalamualaikum. I am just lazing around in school now. Got nothing better to do. I am just stucked in school and got nowhere to go. Band’s banner making session is at 2.30p.m later and the Fiesta Aidilfitri's rehearsal will be at 3.45p.m later. Gosh! I never thought that I could be busier than this after the Mid-Course Exams and the grueling Project Work. Haizzz... What a reality that I have to face. Wanted to follow my family goes to my grandma's village in Malacca but I have the Community Leader's Forum to attend to at the Singapore Expo Hall. So sad. I badly want to go far away from this hectic life of mine to some hideaways where I can reflect and calm myself down before the next rip-roaring chapter of my future starts. I just hope that I’ll be able to do so before the curtains are opened for the brand new year of 2006. Met one of my cousins yesterday and she asked me if I will be able to teach her daughter. I'd love to teach that beautiful relative of mine and I just can't help it but to refuse it. I am just super busy and longed for a special time for myself and my loved ones. When will that time come?
I've been reading so many happy lovely stories but unfortunately, they don't belong to me. I think it is time that I should focus on myself rather than to do so on other people. Hack care about them. "Don't look around but just focus to keep yourself safe and sound". Create and as well as relish my experience. I am so excited and scared too to wait for the day to come. Will the same thing be happening again on that day this year? Anxious. I want it to happen so much but at the same time, I wish it has never happen. What a contradiction... Haizzz...
On another note, I think that I've changed. I am no longer the demure Izwan I used to be. The common comments that my primary and secondary school teachers penned on my reports card from year to year is "Izwan is quiet by nature... Izwan has a gentle demanour". But now? I am very sure that many won't believe that but it is the hard truth. I want to be that old 'Izwan'. I should be more reserved. I do not know what has happened to me. Need some time for my self-reflections...
Assalamualaikum. I am just lazing around in school now. Got nothing better to do. I am just stucked in school and got nowhere to go. Band’s banner making session is at 2.30p.m later and the Fiesta Aidilfitri's rehearsal will be at 3.45p.m later. Gosh! I never thought that I could be busier than this after the Mid-Course Exams and the grueling Project Work. Haizzz... What a reality that I have to face. Wanted to follow my family goes to my grandma's village in Malacca but I have the Community Leader's Forum to attend to at the Singapore Expo Hall. So sad. I badly want to go far away from this hectic life of mine to some hideaways where I can reflect and calm myself down before the next rip-roaring chapter of my future starts. I just hope that I’ll be able to do so before the curtains are opened for the brand new year of 2006. Met one of my cousins yesterday and she asked me if I will be able to teach her daughter. I'd love to teach that beautiful relative of mine and I just can't help it but to refuse it. I am just super busy and longed for a special time for myself and my loved ones. When will that time come?